The Unlucky Me

I never had any luck to get anything or anyone i love...
Since i was small i never get anything i wish to get...
Even now i am grown up it still happen to me...
I really feeling crying....no one understands me...not even my closest family...
Everytime when i am alone and will start i will think of it...Without my conscious, tear will start flowing through my face...
When will this come to an end for me...
I have been trying very hard try not to get this feeling...
It took me more than 4 years to forget her...Is a really very long and suffering 4 years for me...
And now history might repeat again...Why? Why does it have to be me again....
My heart is so pain....i dunno if i can go through it this time...
Did i do anything wrong...i wonder...
If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right for the rest of my life...